I swear to god that I haven't had a minute to myself in months. I'm hoping that Sunday I'll have a minute to myself. Tonight, I'm going to make my world famous chocolate no-bake cookies for the cd exchange. Actually, they are my ex's mothers famous cookies, but I make them so often, I've made them my own. Chocolate, sugar, vanilla, butter, milk, peanut butter and oatmeal. Just utterly yummy. Missey Andrea loves them, so I always make them for parties where she is in attendance. I'm so glad I made all that partay mix last week. I can't imagine what I would do if I still needed to make that... I'm also getting dinner ready for family night on Friday. I think we are going to have pork chops and stuffing. Green beans are also sounding very tasty. I might even make a big fruit salad before the summer fruits are gone. If they are, maybe I'll get some of that carmel apple sauce and apples. Oh, I think that is better. I've been promised that we will be watching mean girls. They watched it without me last week... They are going to be nice and watch it again tomorrow. I also have to burn 10 more cd's, stomp the labels on and then tape/trim the cases. I tell you what. I'm never going to do this again. Next exchange, I'm making one cd, not three. Three is just wrong. It's absolutely wrong. I honestly don't know what I was thinking. Oh well, those who requested a copy will reap the benefits. That is my upcoming evening in a nut shell. Aren't you so glad you aren't me?

I think that going to the gym at SJSU is much more fun than going to the gym somewhere else. I mean look at who you get to watch... A bunch of guys in their early 20's, pumping iron, trying to look buff. This morning there was this guy who had some little bar bell in his hand. All of a sudden, he jumped into this John Travolta stance right out of Saturday Night Fever. I thought I was going to die laughing. Then he changed hands and did it with the other arm. He looked so funny! The guys around him started backing away, afraid that they were going to get hit if he lost his grip. But, there is a cute guy coming in the morning lately when I'm there... I'm sure he is a bunch younger than I am, but I stare at him anyway. He wears this skull cap while he works out, makes him look kinda mean, in that Kevin Smith kinda way. I think he must be kinda buff, but hard to tell over the big t-shirt he wears. It's a very nice view, and keeps me on that machine the whole time. So there you have it. Go workout at a college, much more interesting.

This weekend Miss Nikki and I went to the Ren Fairre down in Hollister. I have always wanted to go, but I've never really dated anyone who wanted to go with me. I asked Nikki and she said she would love to, and thus we did. We decided not to go in costume, simply because I don't have one. Granted, I've always wanted one, but I've never really had a reason to have one. I remedied that situation at the fairre. So, I had a lunch of a hunk of cheese and bread. Let me say, the best lunch ever. I bought a puzzle ring, a hair thingie, and my bodice. I'm thinking I should be able to make the rest without any problem. After the exchange, the sewing machine and I have a date. Nikki decided that she needed to have her cards read. I've never had my cards read before, so I decided to just sit and watch. She was told she needed to stop being a hermit. The woman was right, she does. After Nikki's reading, I decided that I wanted one too. The first card she turned made her say, "Boy are you stable". Yep, I am stable. She said since you aren't with anyone this card must be talking about your career. Yep, I have tenure, and a very stable job. Then she turned the next card and said, "Are you sure you don't have a man in your life? This card says you are in a committed relationship." I said, "No, I'm not in a relationship, but I recently broke up with someone. I yelled at him in the shower this morning." The rest of the reading is a blur about how I am caregiver and I like to be needed. We also talked about the fact that I tend to attract men who are needy, and want to be cared for. Yeah, that's right. She said I needed to find someone that wanted to be with me, not needed something from me. If you have any ideas on how to have that happen let me know. I was also told that I don't put my self in situations that let me find someone. Also true. I know I give off the aura of being involved, I don't know why. It's silly, and I can't figure out how to change it. So, I've added my picture to my profile on Yahoo! to see if I get any "interest". I really should post a personal ad there too. While Match kinda worked for me last time, I'm not really wanting to deal with it now. With this photo gets random im's through out the day. Now, I really don't mind this. Most of the time I can take a minute to chat, but this guy today said he was looking for friends and more. So, I said ok. Then he added no strings attached. For some reason I kept talking, who knows... Then he told me he was looking for nooners. Nooners?!? When did friends and more become nooners. I told him that I really wasn't interested in being "friends and more" with a married man. I've done that, it's not good for anyone involved. He starts begging me to just meet him, we don't have to have sex all the time! Yeah, right, OK. You aren't getting sex from me buddy. He says that he wants a sexual relationship that his wife can't give him. You know what? I don't understand men who think that it's ok to just go and have sex with some woman and it's not going to hurt their wives. FYI guys... Most of the time they find out. Who knows if the women stay or not... That doesn't matter. It hurts them regardless. I would even imagine that my MM's wife could know what happened with us. I know it would have hurt her. Who knows why I didn't care at that point in time. So, I told this guy that he must really hate his wife, and if he loves her he should work with her to get what he needs. I doubt that will happen. At least I did the smart thing. I told him no. Maybe I should turn that profile back off. Maybe it's not the smart way to meet a man.

via Polyester Bride...
You are the Empress card.

My friend Anne is moving. She is getting a lovely home in Willow Glen. When I heard this, my little hampster started running around it's wheel. I said, hey, maybe I should buy Anne's house. So I brought the topic up to my mom, and to my delight, she said, "I think that is a GREAT idea!" Well, after reading up on California Real Estate tax law, I found out that I can't buy Anne's house. That was such a bummer. But, to my surprise, my mom is still interested in moving and buying something else. So, this weekend I start house-hunting. I am so excited! I've got 6 different colored highlighters, a clipboard with paper, a Santa Clara county map... All the essentials for going house hunting really. I have a price range, and a little note about how much money we have to make something the way we like it. I'm thinking that with the market the way it is here, it should take me at least 2 or 3 months to find something that will do what we need it to do.

• No Stairs
• 1400 square feet
• Big back yard for Daisy
• 3 bed rooms
• two bathrooms
• Close to at least one friend.

Just to freak you out a bit... My price max is $600,000. Enough to buy a bad house in a good neighbourhood or a great house in a sucky one. Who knows what I'm going to find, but I'm so excited that I can barely keep my feet on the ground. Who needs a man when you can buy a house?

I've been officially off Zoloft for about 2 weeks now. I thought that I would be crying all the time, like I did every other time I tried to give it up. Yeah, well, let's just say that I'm not crying. Actually, I've still be laughing. It's almost like the last episode with the ex really changed my outlook. It made me realize a bunch of things I didn't really know about myself. And most importantly, it made me realize that I didn't need a cruch to be happy. I've not cried once since I went off Zolfot. I've not cried once since I let go of my ex once and for all. I'm so proud of myself. Now, if only I could stop eating crap. I'm still exercising everyday, but I'm really falling down on the food job. I think it's time to see that trainer at the gym. Maybe they can help me.

Ok, so the questions are kinda, oh I don't know, third grade... But, they are fun. Answer in the comments if you wish.