you know it! my san jose sabercats are arena bowl bound once again! they beat the la avengers tonight! lets go cats! beat la! it was a great game. mar and tire man had a fight. why? let me tell you. there was finally a camera man around to put the two of them on kiss kam, and mar was sitting next to boo, not tire man. so tire man, in his infinate wisdom, pushed, or should i say, tried to push boo out of the way so that he could kiss mar on camera. can you say not a smart move on tire mans part? then tire man and boo spilled the $4.50 pepsi all over the floor, which totally pissed her off. hah! the mar and tire man show was over right then and there. she took off and hid for almost an entire quarter. her face was so red. i’ve not seen her that pissed in a long time. tire man’s need to be the center of her world is going to get him in trouble. mar is the center of mars world, then hootie, then boo and then maybe tire man… maybe. mom, me and the dogs sometimes take priority.
she told me how upset she was that no one called her on her birthday, and then told me that she thought i would call. and i said no. i had walked 5 feet behind tire man and her for 5 days and i had enough. she said that i walked slow, and i told her, that i was keeping up with them just fine, wasn’t i? and she said yes. and finally i think realized how it made me feel. she didn’t apologize, which she should, but she now knows… i won’t be doing anything but the sabercats when tire man is going to be around for a long time. i’ve had enough. i don’t like him and that is that. i’m not going to make her choose, but i’m not going to put myself in the position to be abused and neglected by the mar and tire man show anymore. and to be quite honest with you, she is only going to put up with that crap for so long. he was doing it to mom too. she doesn’t like that, at all. and i am her sister. she didn’t like it when mm was messing with me… does tire man really think that she is going to put up with him treating me poorly? i hardly think so. i think tire man better remember his place in her life, or she is going to boot kick him out the door.
sb and i are still working on working things out. they are getting much better. and i think that i’m over that lunar eclipse, over emotional, psycho girlfriend stuff. at least i hope i am. god, what if i’m not. that would be really bad, wouldn’t it? and god only knows, i really am like this once a month. imagine me with no zoloft… i’m like this every single day! it so sucks. i’m so insecure sometimes. after michael, i have no faith in myself. i think why does he like me, and i’m sure he only likes me for one reason… even if that isn’t true. really gotta work on that self esteem stuff.
you know why i’m falling for him? he makes me laugh. he tells me these really stupid sixth grade jokes, and i laugh. and he looks at me, and i feel complete. like i’ve meant to be with him all this time. and he holds my hand when we walk down the street, and kisses me when we have to stop… why can’t i be more secure that he feels the same way.
Look who’s talking…