claudette’s mom

claudette’s mom died about a month ago. she was older, but it was still unexpected. today i walked in the building and claudette said hello. we used to know eachother from the career center (when i was going to school here). she asked me what was wrong. you see, i’ve been kinda down for the past week. i really do miss sb. so i told her that i broke up with my boyfriend. she offered some sympathy, and told me that things happen for a reason, and that somethings aren’t meant to be. very true.

later on, i went to the ladies, and there is claudette in the bathroom. she was crying. pretty hard. i sat with her for a minute, trying to comfort her. i told her that my mom has days where she still crys… and my grandma has been gone for years. it just takes time, and no one is judging her for crying. everyone understands. i told her about sitting in my cube crying for sb last week, very grateful that no one talks to me. she is more of an admin, she doesn’t have that luxury.

talking to her about her loss reminded me how little my loss really is. there are so many more important things to lose… i lost a month of my time, not the 50+ years that claudette had her mom. loss is hard, no matter the time period. i will move past this. i’ve just not been doing well thus far. i don’t think anything would make me happier then to have him call me. and we all know, that is just not going to happen. i’m sure claudette wishes the same thing, only her mom can’t call. it is final. and i’m sad for her.