You really want to know?

So, Jennifer has asked me to update.  Hmm.  I really don’t want to update.  I feel like that I don’t have anything positive to talk about.  But, I can update, and tell you all what has been going on.

Mom had surgery on December 4 to replace the lining in her artificial hip.  The doctor was very happy with the surgery, however, my mom is still exhausted, and now she is worried that something else has gone wrong.  We have been making cookies in the evening.  She sits and watches from a comfortable chair, while I bake.  But we talk, which is what I think she wants.  I am hoping that she just has a little bug. 

Dad had surgery on December 11 to remove the polyp that was blocking his bile ducts.  Well, the “pre-cancerous” polyp, turned out to be cancer.  They removed parts of his stomach, small intestine, pancreas, and all of his gall bladder.  I get calls from my Aunt Dee on a regular basis.  Both she and my mom think I should stay far, far away from the hospital.  My dad however, requested that I come before he went in.  He has never requested that I visit in the past, so I feel kinda obligated to go.  Dr. Jaki says that it is fine, I should go.  John and I will be visiting on Saturday, just for a minute.  Not long.  Just a minute.  As Jennifer will tell you, we have no idea what is happening, and we have to wait a week before we know anything.  At least a week.  I don’t know if he is going to have the kemo or not.  I’d like to think that he will be around for the birth of the baby.  I hope he wants to be around as well.

I found out at my last doctors appointment that Dr. Jaki and I share a due date.  I think I knew that she was pregnant, but I just wasn’t sure.  I had asked her early on, and she said she was, and then brushed it off.  I’ve been very concerned about delivering the baby without her.  She is very aware of my fear of needles…  And knows how to deal with me when I’m scared.  What is some doctor that I don’t know going to do?  It’s a good question.  Surprisingly, I’m not scared about the labor.  I think I’m supposed to be, but I’m really not.  I think that women have been giving birth for 1000’s of years, I can do it too.  It will be interesting to see how it goes.  I think it’s going to be just fine.

John has been trying so hard to be supportive.  It’s very sweet.  We had a conversation about it last week, about the support I think I might need.  I think he just hasn’t realized how stressed I really am.  I think he is starting to figure it out.  That is very nice.

All I can say is that I cry every day.  I try hard to find something to laugh about as well.  I’d hate the baby to come out depressed because it’s mom was crying all the time.  It has been a very, very hard couple of months.  Thank god my boss has been so understanding.  Only 1 week and 1 day of work left before the break.  Needless to say, I really need it.