It’s really hard to watch your baby get old. For Daisy, it started with going blind. I think she had some vision, but what she had left didn’t even allow her to go for walks. She would get spooked by bushes and trees. My runner stopped running. She would come out to the front yard, and where last summer she would run down the street looking for cat poop in the neighbours yard, this weekend she just went to the driveway, and turned around and went back in.
We were sure that she had doggy Alzheimers. She would just pace up and down the halls, as if she was confused as to were she was. Last night when I got home from work, she was walking into corners and just stopping there, as if she was unsure how to get out of that corner. She even stopped greeting me at the door when I got home from work. Last night, she came to me about 5 minutes after I walked in. I bent down to say hello and she kissed me. Just a little one, but she hadn’t kissed me in a long time.
I told my mom that tonight was the night. I was sure that it was her time. By the time John got home, she was panting weirdly, and I was really concerned that she was fading fast. We sat down on the couch to decide what to do, and Daisy started to have a seizure. It was so scary, poor Daisy. Funny thing is, when it was over, she went right back to the pacing, almost toppling over.
John and I took her to the emergency vet at about 6:30, and she had another seizure in the waiting room. Poor Daisy. She didn’t even care that we took her in the car. She used to shiver every time she got in the car. She didn’t even know that we took her in the car. When the administered the drug, I’m sure that my Daisy felt no pain. Her breath was so labored, and it just slowly stopped. I’m not even sure that she knew it was me holding her. I kissed her forehead and told her I loved her.
The house is so empty. While I know that it was her time, and it wasn’t fair to keep her around in her confused state, I really miss her. She has been such a huge part of my life for the past 12 years. I’m just so sad.
Good-bye Daisy Do. You will be missed.
I’m sorry for your loss. I am sure it was hard, but I’m glad you were able to be with her, I’m sure she must have known. May the memories bring you comfort.