Almost a week…

It’s been almost a week since Daisy’s passing.  You know, life has just gone on.  It’s really weird.  John and I take care of Sean and then we go to bed.

I miss her clicking nails on the hard wood floor, waking me up at 2 am because she needed a drink.  I miss her prancing around at 7 because she needed her insulin.  I miss her coming into the bathroom after my shower, licking the water off my legs.  I miss her greeting me at the door when I come home, and jumping on me.  I miss her needing to sit near me, but no where on me, just far away so that I can’t touch her.

Thursday night at dinner Sean screamed “Dais, Dais” wanting her to come so that he could feed her his dinner.  We told him that she went “bye bye.”  He seemed a bit frustrated with this, but he seemed to understand, and went with it.  Tonight he threw all his food on the floor, and when I let him out of his chair, he ate off the floor, as if to take her place.

Mom said that she saw Daisy yesterday…  I’ve not seen her yet.  I dreamed about her last night, she was under an end table, alive and well.  I was so happy to see her.

Today was hard.  I cried a lot.  I just keep thinking that maybe if I had let the vet try and fix her, she would still be here.  Instead, I just let her go.  I just miss her so much.  Carey at work reminded me that for a long time we were so integrated.  Daisy and I were a pair.  While John and Sean are my life, there is just this hole in my heart.  And it really hurts.

Big hug and kiss for Daisy, where ever you are.

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Comments

  1. Sweetie I’m so sorry.  We lost our Riso a month ago and it still hurts.  I can tell you it does get better, but it will take a while.  Those fuzzy little buggers just worm their way into our hearts and losing them is so hard.

    XO

  2. I’m so sorry to hear Daisy has passed away. I wish I could give you a hug!

  3. I’m so sorry about your dog…maybe the fact that you won the RAK a Day over at Color Me Daisy will help a little bit!  smile

  4. I’m so sorry for your loss. There’s a temptation to say they’re only our pets, but they fill our hearts and comfort us and provide an unconditional acceptance that our human companions cannot. Even though she’s no longer adding to your memories, the times she was there to comfort you and get you through the tough times and share in the good times can never be taken away. Izzy sends her condolences.