to match or not to match…

as you recall from the previous week, i joined match.com. not one boy has written to me. not one. i’ve written to 3, only one responded… and then he has yet to respond again. i’m thinking that this is a waste of my cash. there is this other one that i have been frequenting called bbwsinglesnetwork or something, and atleast the men send me little notes telling me that i look interesting. but still. it seems a bit smarmy to me. like these guys could be praying on “fat chicks”. the question of the hour is, am i a fat chick. i think that i am between a fat chick and an average chick. and that my picture really isn’t as good as i think it is. i’ve asked mm’s advice, we shall see what he says. if he says anything. i’m sure it will not be easy for him to talk about this. i’m sure that he would rather be the object of my affection, like he isn’t. i can only tell him so many times that i wish things were different. they aren’t they can’t be. that is it. :( i’d really like to f**k him right now. i’m so wanting a man. it’s not even funny.