jennifer is pregnant

jennifer, an old friend from aspect, is pregnant. she was pregnant when i worked at aspect, but she had a miscarriage. she is 5 months pregnant now, and she looks very healthy. i saw her at my weekly dinner with missey andrea. misseys mom joined us. they both bought something, and i didn’t. not for lack of trying, but nothing looked interesting to me. so i said, forget it, and didn’t spend a dime. kirk called last night. he has been trying to get up the nerve to go out with me. he wants to go on a date. what he really wants is to get laid. i told him that i would go out with him, but he had to plan it. he has yet to set a date/time/place. i’m not sure he has it in him. oh kirk. if only you didn’t have all these substance abuse problems. maybe things would be different. wait, not true. they wouldn’t be any different. i still want so much more from life than he can give me.