Archives for March 2003

today was my first official holiday for the state of california. cesar chavez day. i think it is interesting that we got today off. we also got martin luther king day off, but that is different. when you tell people that it is cesar chavez day, and thus it is a paid holiday for you, they kinda get irritated. i think i'm just lucky to have a state job. i went shopping with miss anne-a-belle today. she is so pregnant! i am so jealous. i would love to be pregnant, have a husband and a … [Read more...]

dating really sucks. meeting new people sucks. it has been so long since i have been on a date, and now i remember why. i absolutely hate it. i hate having to start conversations, i hate having to think of interesting questions, i hate trying to make myself look appealing. i shouldn't have taken mar and tire mans advice. i should have gone home and changed. i should have worn a dress. i didn't i wore shorts and a rugby shirt. yes, i did look cute, but not first date kind of cute. he … [Read more...]

so, now i've decided that being impatient was bad. i should give people a chance to get back to me. i'm just so tired of being by myself. it's hard. i want to expand my horizons, but i want to do it right now! i'm chatting with a guy, whom i think is chatting with someone else. that's ok. i can blog. i don't care anyway, do i? you know i care. that is the problem with me, i need to be the damn center of attention. ok, that's not true either. i don't need to be the center of … [Read more...]

today is day two of brio training. i feel like i've been here before, but i know i haven't. it was crystal training, when i worked at amd. i'm getting some very basic information today, nothing really exciting, but hopefully i will get to use some of it. you never know. i can't wait for tonight's sabercats game. i think i'm going to wear my dress. i really don't care. i just have to be careful not to flash the camera guy. kirk wants me to do something with him this weekend. not that he … [Read more...]

i think that online dating has got to be one of the most degrading things i have ever put myself through. i have a profile, and i added a picture, i even posted it on a site that "caters" to larger women. yet, i've sent over 10 emails in the past 2 days, and i've only had one response. one. that's it. what the hell is wrong with my picture? i just don't get it. i never thought i was ugly. i always thought that i was pretty, at least i hoped i was. now, i'm not so sure. mm used to tell … [Read more...]

for the first 2 months or so that i was at sjsu, i just adored it. i so missed working and i really liked the people. i felt like i was really starting to fit in someplace. then winter session hit. i had a blast. i worked everyday, i had lunch with the group almost every day, and i had my carpool. i felt such a part of this wonderful team. i don't feel that way anymore. i feel like high school. like it is a popularity contest. since i've never been a "popular" person, it has never … [Read more...]

i have a set of q cards. i actually think i own two, one trashed set, and one brand new set. i just love them. i read three cards just about every morning, just to see what they say. i got my favorite card yesterday, "dearest wish comes true". i wonder, what is my dearest wish? do you think it can come true, if i don't know what it is? i'm just not sure. i'd like to think so... the quest is now on to discover what my dearest wish really is. i'm thinking that it is marriage and … [Read more...]

i had my first request to remove something from my site today. gigglechick had a similar request, which caused her to rethink her journal. i'm glad that she decided to continue with basically what she was writing. i really enjoy looking into her point of view. i was asked to remove a picture because of all the crazy people out there. let me tell you, they are not visiting my site. my hit count for a normal day is 50. of those 50 hits, 95% are spiders, looking to see if i've changed … [Read more...]

mom did not like my index page asking people to boycott michael moore. i can't say that i blame her. it is however something michael moore would have done. enough said. to please my mother, i've changed the index page to reflect more of my opinion of this war. yes, i have an opinion. it is very close to my mom's opinion. i don't think we should be in iraq. i think we are in iraq for many reasons, none of which is to save the iraqi people and help them build a democratic state. granted, … [Read more...]

yesterdays sabercats game was one of those games where everything seems to be running in slow motion. i watched these guys make mistake after mistake... and just where was daron alcorn aiming for when he was kicking the ball? it wasn't the goal posts. the cats lair has never been so quiet. the fans were in shock. and then, in the last 11 seconds of the game, james roe came through for us... the press release calls it a "circus catch", but i call it great football. i watched that ball come … [Read more...]