ice cream

ok… so everyone should know by now that i’m trying really hard to be good. i’ve been journaling what i eat, and here is what a weekday looks like. oatmeal for breakfast, salad with meat for lunch and very small dinner (normally pasta with cheese).

today i decided that i needed ice cream. i don’t know why. i’ve not had ice cream in a few weeks, but today (and saturday) i needed it. so, i walked to ben and jerry’s and tried the new oatmeal cookie dough… no raisens (don’t like ’em, can’t spell the word)… chocolate chip ice cream with the oatmeal cookie stuff in it. it was pretty yummy. the guy even sold me a kids size. I guess i shouldn’t feel too bad about it, right? i just wish that it had helped me feel better. it didn’t.

i’m pretty sure i’m not going to hear from radio boy. i’ve got a theory on him… i’m a put together kind of person. i try really hard to look nice when i go out… even if i’m just going to the store. (ok, granted i do walk daisy in my pj’s) he isn’t into that. that is fine, but it makes it difficult to be interested, when it is something that is important to me. so, i’m trying to take him on personality alone. i’m not sure he is doing it for me. i’m going to give it another try on saturday.

3DO guy is back. he is trying to make a go at the long distance relationship kind of thing. i do wish him luck. he is now out of a job. apparently, 3DO has given up and filed for bancrupcy. i feel bad about that. it sucks losing your job in this job market. he is talking about leaving town in his emails. you know, he is the only guy i wrote to that actually wrote back more than once. do you know how sad that is? now, i have to remember that i’m not allowed to have any ppp’s… but i’m feeling like having one. so maybe i will.