as you recall from the previous week, i joined match.com. not one boy has written to me. not one. i've written to 3, only one responded... and then he has yet to respond again. i'm thinking that this is a waste of my cash. there is this other one that i have been frequenting called bbwsinglesnetwork or something, and atleast the men send me little notes telling me that i look interesting. but still. it seems a bit smarmy to me. like these guys could be praying on "fat chicks". the … [Read more...]

boring, boring, boring... no offer letter yet, not enough to do, yucky. sheri is still avoiding me. i'm sure that isn't going to end soon... and i'm talking to mm... but that does make me smile, as does looking at my picture of deke on the wall. he did kinda ruin the mystic when he kissed his girlfriend. but, i've decided that i'm just not going to let it bug me. he is allowed to have a girlfriend, right? going home to the puppies is not very appealing, but i know that daisy is … [Read more...]

meet little baby philip! this is minnie's baby. she is the second of my college friends to have a baby. ms. tina, the baby machine, has 2 sons already. philip looks a bit like minnie. very cute! … [Read more...]

i've decided that i don't need to wait for my favorite crooner to come and visit where i live. i can go to him. mr. deke dickerson himself was visiting old ironsides in sacramento on saturday night. as always, he did not disappoint. i dragged ms. cinder up with me, put her in a dress, and boy howdy! did we have a great time! i wish that she lived closer. we would do things a lot more often. she is fun to hang with, and she always lets me choose what we do. who could ask for more? … [Read more...]

once again i have made the mistake of asking jt to do something. you know, i'm not even really fond of him. i used to think he was a great guy, but now i know he is not. not at all, and yet, i keep asking him to do things. i've got to stop doing that. maybe it is because i dumped stephen. maybe i'm looking to fill a void. yes, stephen has left a big void. but jt isn't the one to fill it. he really isn't. i don't need another man in my life who wants me to have a crush on him. i've got … [Read more...]

so i did it... i put a profile on match.com and now, i've paid to use the service. i'm going to ask mar to help me start writing letters. i also need to get more pictures out there... i think that might help. this is nerve wracking. i've been looked at 18 times, but no letter. but 18 people were interested enough to read, that must be good, right? … [Read more...]

this is me, i'm now on match trixie1167. i really need a date. can't you help me out? … [Read more...]

this weekend was all about my dad's puppies. doogie tried to run away when i was purchasing my girlscout cookies. i opened the door, and all the dogs went out to greet the leader and the girlscout. daisy took off to eat cat poop in the bushes, and then doogie took off in the other direction. since daisy knows where she lives, i left to chase after doogie. he was half way to safeway before the girlscout leader caught him. stupid dog. when i got back to the house, daisy was also back from … [Read more...]

working is hard. not that i'm not productive, because i am. i've been working on this report, generated in cold fusion. i've only asked one question of my technical resource, the ultra cool Dan Skaggs, and i've got one more problem left to solve... totals. one would think that i would be happy with my feat... i am actually... look at the code. it is so dynamic. it will interface with a web form... i'm very proud. but the stress level surrounded with "did i get the job" is starting to … [Read more...]

so my boss is reviewing the committees recomendations for who to hire as we speak. my heart is racing, and i feel like i'm going to cry. this is one of the hardest experiences i have ever had. i don't understand why the process works this way, and i don't understand why they just don't tell me if they want me or not. i'm thinking that they don't want me. that they had this awesome candidate that they think would be a much better fit than i could be. it is so scary. i've decided that if i … [Read more...]