so, you all know that i love these q cards, right? lookie what i got today. maybe things are looking up for me. my horescope says so, and now my q cards. i guess i'd better turn my frown upside down and make a happy face. gotta joke you want to share? that might help! … [Read more...]

nancy is right... you project what you feel. i feel not pretty, like i'm huge, and that no guy in the room was interested in me. i don't know if that was true or not. it was the weirdest night i've ever had in my life. there were 25 girls and 24 guys. the odds were even. there was a really cute firefighter (dave) there. i liked talking to him. and this guy named stan... he was really friendly. i think i'm going to write him down as a friend. then there was matt, who didn't ask me one … [Read more...]

tomorrow night is going to be my horror of horrors. i'm going to eight minute dating. my new friend at work nancy, suggested it about 2 weeks ago. she did it once, in los gatos, and while she wasn't successful, she had a great time. i'm not sure about the whole thing. i mean, normally i'm fine one on one, but there will be so many people there, it's at the edge in palo alto. so, it's a dance club and then this dating thing. i'm sure you have seen how this works. it was on dateline last … [Read more...]

how is it fair that after 21 days, i get to have my period yet again. and it hurts... no wonder i've been so irritable. but, it's just not right. i've got enough problems... my mom asked me why i was so emotional about dating, well, now we know why. period, period, period. yuck, yuck yuck. ok, for those of you interested in my dating escapades... no, radio boy doesn't do it for me. i think i really wanted him to. he is a nice guy, but he has no forward motion that i can see. and the … [Read more...]

ok... so everyone should know by now that i'm trying really hard to be good. i've been journaling what i eat, and here is what a weekday looks like. oatmeal for breakfast, salad with meat for lunch and very small dinner (normally pasta with cheese). today i decided that i needed ice cream. i don't know why. i've not had ice cream in a few weeks, but today (and saturday) i needed it. so, i walked to ben and jerry's and tried the new oatmeal cookie dough... no raisens (don't like 'em, … [Read more...]

at this point in time, i think it is important to remind everyone how much i hate dating. i'm begining to think i really would have been better off alone. and there you have it. one girl who is absolutely sick of dating. … [Read more...]

so, radio boy and i have been chatting on the phone. i've been enjoying it. it's nice to have someone to talk to. not that there aren't others to talk to. i've been a bit flakey on calling them. one wanted to do something today, and i didn't even know until after 3, and by then, you know my weekend is totally packed. so, i couldn't go. when i get upset, the social calendar gets filled. thus, it is jam packed with things to do. stephen is going to the wedding with me. THANK GOD! he can … [Read more...]

this weekend is jammed packed of activity. last night, movies and dinner with stephen. i was so hungry when we got there, that i actually ate a hotdog. good thing they offered ketchup and relish. stephen brought candy to the movies. i've not eaten candy in over a week. ok, well i can't say that any more. mean stephen. we saw bruce almighty. it was pretty good. i've not laughed like that in a long time. got home to two phone calls from radio boy. that was cool. chatted with him while … [Read more...]

so, now, all these guys are coming out of the woodwork... there is radio boy, kinda cool... there is the ym man, who is kinda stalky, keeps calling me hun, sweetie, babe, that kind of thing (pretty sure not interested). there is 3DO guy, kinda in and out, but i'm thinking out. there is the guy from yahoo that i'm not sure about (can't quite put my finger on it). there is ariel, yep that's right, but he hasn't chatted with me today. … [Read more...]

online gaming went beserk last night. this game called shadowbane was hacked by some guys... they reset the rules, and took over the world, spreading chaos. now, normally i would be thinking, i don't really understand the need for online gaming... but i'm reading this article and i'm thinking, this is the funniest thing i've read in a long time. imagine, playing a game, that you know the rules to... you are new at it, and so you are practicing... and then someone comes over and smacks you … [Read more...]