Archives for 2004

so, it has finally happened... I HAVE TENURE! no more big worries about being let go, no more thinking about if i should be hunting for a new job, and no more raises! so, it may be the day to be green, but st. patricks day now means job security, and i like it. … [Read more...]

i've been calling missey andrea on a regular basis to determine if she has had that bump yet. she was supposed to have the bump within 10 days of last wednesday. hmph. no baby. i'm so ready to meet this bump, and i have bump envy. i'm hoping that it will be a st. patty's day bump. wouldn't that be nice? … [Read more...]

this weekend was uber busy! i can't believe how much i packed in! friday, i got home from work and i made dinner. neither the rocker or i could decide what we wanted to eat, so i decided to grill up the steaks i had, and i made nachos. granted, i only had sharp cheddar cheese and chips. no sour cream, no guacomole... but i did have salsa, so that's what i made. cheddar cheese nachos with steak. the rocker ate it up! it turned out much better than i expected! then, we went over to santa … [Read more...]

mom came home on sunday. she arrived while the rocker and i were at dinner at his brothers. when we got home, she was there. she had done the dishes we brought home from the baby shower on saturday. she cleaned up the kitchen. she took out the trash. all these things i simply didn't have time to do, she did. she even took back the outdated pineapple i got for my lunch from safeway. i had company in the evening (the rocker was given time to be at his house with his parents who were also … [Read more...]

i decided that i didn't like the rocker using things i told him against me. he seems to do it more than i like so, i asked him to meet me at the house, and i said my peace. i told my boy that he was never allowed to say that my "mental stability" was a reason not to take our relationship farther. i told him that if he was having a problem with what was going on, he needed to own it. i think that is only fair. i mean really, blaming one another for our problems doesn't get anyone anywhere. … [Read more...]

for the past few years, my dad has been trying to get me to buy him out of my parents house. i've not really wanted to... i don't see any reason to buy something that will be mine some day anyway. i mean really. i know it sounds wrong (thinking that my dad is going to die and i'm going to get the house), but after the stroke things are looking more that way. BUT, mom doesn't want dad to be on the property anymore. i can't say that i blame her. she is concerned that upon dad's death, dad's … [Read more...]

well... i finally launched my cold fusion site on friday... i've been playing around, making sure it's happy for the past few days. it seems to be. it's nice when work goes well. my boss told me today that i am going to pass probation, and that i will have tenure on march 17. that makes me very happy. no more worrying about getting laid off. even though i shouldn't, i do worry about being let go. i worry that i'm just not good enough. my boss told me today that i am. and that they are … [Read more...]

there are days when my zoloft works... there are weeks when my zoloft works... unfortunately, my zoloft hasn't worked for weeks. i have been in this funk. i'm in it at work, i'm in it at home, i'm in it on gno and i'm in it with the rocker. i don't know why. nothing is really wrong. i really should be happy. but, i'm just not. and for the most part, i don't even want to talk about it. how weird is that? … [Read more...]

coldfusion and i have been having a fight for months. i want it to not prompt for a network password, and it wants to prompt for a network password. today a uber cool dude over in the college of business figured it out. yes, i didn't give permission to the coldfusion folder to inet_user. what a loser am i. but, now at least i can launch... if i can get it to see the sjsu style sheet. happy dance! happy dance! … [Read more...]

i had such a wonderful time at stiches west! i can not tell you how absolutely inspiring it was! on friday, my day started with having breakfast with my dad... who is still not quite himself... i think that as weeks go on, things will get better, but i'm worried that he will never be the same again. we went to this little place in danville called ruggies... it's ok. i had 1/2 a bennie. if i had been good, i wouldn't have eaten my hashbrowns... i wasn't good, but they were. i dropped my … [Read more...]