dating…  do i really want to?

i decided to put myself back out on match.com with the new pictures from vancouver. i’m just not sure about the whole thing… i really do miss the rocker. really. there are days when i wish i could turn back the clock and just bitten my tongue. so tonight i’m out looking on craigslist… god, i don’t know why, this whole thing depresses me… and i see this:

musician seeks mate – 35

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Date: 2004-07-17, 5:14AM PDT

Male musician seeks female. Must enjoy music, rock and roll, concerts, or have an appreciation for how much it means to me. I play various instruments and record myself and other people. I have a regular day job, but love to participate in music at night. What music are you into?

everything but the job thing fits the rocker. but then he might have a job again, you never know. yes, this ad hurts me… to think that he is moving on just kills me. to think that i am moving on kills me too.

maybe it’s just that i hate dating so much. maybe it’s that i love him more than i thought i did. maybe i’m just uber lonely. maybe i just want him back.

damn ad. damn rocker. and you know, it doesn’t help to see that every guy that i dated last year (sans one) is still out there. god… there is no hope is there.

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